♪ ♪ ♪ Kid: Pa arriba, pa arriba, pa arriba.

Pa Eagle Pass.

Woman: ¿Ahora adónde me llevas?

P'allá.

P'acá.

P'allá.

P'allá, p'allá.

P'acá.

Por aquí.

P'allá.

P'allá.

♪ ♪ Woman: I must have crossed this bridge a million times.

But the first time I remember was when I was 5.

That was when my brothers, the twins, Mars and Alex, were born.

My parents had crossed over from Eagle Pass to Piedras Negras the day before 'cause they had better hospitals on the Mexico side.

And when my cousin drove me over to meet them for the first time, I thought the bridge and the river were a magical portal.

♪ ♪ I feel close to Mars here.

♪ ♪ I'm pretty sure he's this dragonfly.

♪ ♪ [Waves rolling] I always planned to make movies with my three brothers.

With Paco, the oldest, and the twins.

But Mars and I only ever got to shoot one thing together.

We were all going to the beach.

And as soon as we got there, Alex went straight to the water.

I was entranced by this view of him, and I wanted so badly to record it.

So I asked Mars for his camera, and we stood together as I pointed it at Alex.

[Waves crashing] And, of course, Mars had had the exact same thought right before he walked up to me.

And had taken a photo of me watching Alex, Alex watching the sea.

[Wind blowing] When I got the call, I tried desperately to rewind through my memories to be with him again.

But I couldn't.

[Wind blowing] Since then, I've only had this carousel of the same few fragmented moments going round and round.

♪ But Mars is gone now.

And all I'm left with is his camera.

♪ Now that I'm back here, can I find my memories of us?

[Hazard lights ticking] Can I find you?

I promised you I'd try.

♪ ♪ The way, we know the way ♪ ♪ We've seen the way ♪ ♪ We'll show the way to get you back home ♪ ♪ To the peace where you belong ♪ [Birds chirping] Robie: Everything looks smaller than I remember it.

And sounds quieter.

[Birds chirping] [Distant piano playing] ♪ ♪ [Piano stops abruptly] I haven't really been back to Eagle Pass since I left for college.

I was ready to get the [Bleep] out at 18.

I wanted to go to the city and reinvent myself.

And shed this little place off.

Man: I was sorry to hear about your brother.

Yeah, thanks.

It was hard.

That's been part of like, the hard part of moving back that he was a film student too.

We were always going to like work together.

Sucks.

[Cow moos] [Cows mooing] Robie: Our childhood feels like a dream.

There's very little trace of it.

Because our parents weren't so great at documenting.

They were the type that would take photos with no film in the camera.

There are no videos, or drawings, or any of my brilliantly written teen journals.

So what did it look like to grow up here together?

Maybe if I look for what I know about this place, it can make my past feel more real.

[Fire crackling] ♪ Es que, crúzalo por el tubo.

Crúzate ahora sí.

Kid: ¡Ma, el último!

Woman: Espérate.

Man: [Indistinct] ♪ Voy a llorar ♪ ♪ Voy a llorar ♪ ♪ Voy a llorar ♪ ♪ Dijiste que me esperabas ♪ Kid 2: ¿Es tuyo?

♪ En la esquina de tu casa voy a llorar ♪ ♪ Dijiste que me esperabas ♪ ♪ Voy a llorar ♪ ♪ En la esquina de tu casa voy a llorar ♪ ♪ Voy a llorar, voy a llorar ♪ ♪ Voy a llorar ♪ Man: Ladies and gentlemen, once again, welcome everyone to our 2018 edition of our Maverick County Junior Livestock Show.

Will the following contestants, please report to the back.

Valeria Sanchez.

Don't forget.

If you forget the step, what are you gonna do?

Keep on shaking.

Keep on what?

Shaking.

Your shoulders.

Real sassy, okay?

Man: Before we get started, I'd like our gentlemen to please remove your hats.

As we take a minute, to thank God for all the blessings he's given us these last few days.

We thank you for bringing us together today in fellowship to share in your love.

We ask you to bless all those gathered here today.

You 'member, if you don't remember the dance, Ayleen, you should keep on shaking.

Okay?

Or you can do this.

Or you can do this.

I'm like, yeah, okay.

Yeah.

Or you can do this.

One of the parts to the dance.

Yeah.

Or like.

♪ Give him 3 years.

It's a good one.

[Laughing] Kid: ¡Mami!

Boy 1: What if in our dreams, we're living another life?

And we remember them because it's another life.

And something interesting happened in that life.

Like another dimension?

Like, I don't know.

A parallel universe?

Kind of.

Like something... Like you go to sleep and then you're in a different life.

Oh, like her song, Billie Eilish, "where do we go when we all fall asleep?"

I didn't get it from there.

I just got it because we were talking in class about like dreams, and...

So you're saying when we go to sleep, we go to like another... Yeah, what if we go to another dimension or something?

I don't know how you sleep with these.

[Barking] 'Cause, like, if you press them, They're going to make a sound and they're hard.

I put it over here.

Robie: I've always had vivid dreams.

And waking up every morning, it would take me a moment to figure out what was real.

So after Mars died, I tried so hard not to sleep.

I didn't want to dream that he was still here.

I was terrified to wake up to relive the shock every day.

[Marching band playing] ♪ ♪ [Whistling] [People cheering] [Marching band playing] ♪ ♪ Man: Camilo Pedraza, the ball carrier.

[Indistinct] First time for the Bulldogs [indistinct] 39 yards.

♪ Las manos hacia arriba, las manos hacia abajo ♪ ♪ Como las gorilas ♪ ♪ Uh, uh, uh ♪ ♪ Robie: I feel like I'm punishing myself coming back here.

My chest feels tight with this... pena.

It's like I'm 15 again.

And I hate that all of that teenage anxiety so easily creeps back in.

But Mars keeps slipping away.

♪ What I would do to take away ♪ ♪ This fear of being loved ♪ ♪ Allegiance to the pain ♪ ♪ Now I'm [...] and I'm missing you ♪ ♪ He'll never be like you ♪ ♪ I would give anything ♪ ♪ To change this fickle-minded heart ♪ ♪ That loves fake shiny things ♪ ♪ Now I'm [...] and I'm missing you ♪ ♪ He'll never be like you ♪ ♪ I'm only human, can't you see?

♪ ♪ I made, I made a mistake ♪ ♪ Please just look me in my face ♪ ♪ Tell me everything's okay ♪ ♪ Cause I got it ♪ ♪ Ooh, he'll never be like you ♪ [Wind blowing] ♪ ♪ ¡Ay!

Es que me parte el alma ♪ ♪ Que muera la esperanza ♪ Robie: When we were planning Mars' memorial, I asked his friends for fun videos of him 'cause I couldn't bear the thought of someone making some stupid, sad slideshow.

♪ Que viva la nostalgia ♪ ♪ Y que repare el tiempo lo que en ti rompí ♪ ♪ Florecerá ♪ But then I came across his hard drives.

And I found a treasure trove of moments that I never even realized he had been collecting over the years.

♪ Marcelo: Paco!

Do you ever shower?

Did you shower today?

"Que les da la fuerza para amarse y amar a los demás."

Ay, qué poeta tan padre.

Marcelo, te avientas para escribir.

Marcelo: ¿Verdad?

♪ There's alligators!

Marcelo: How do you know?

♪ Man: Oh, you're taking a video right now?

Marcelo: Yeah, who knows when I'll see you guys again.

I'm going to add this to the video that I've been editing for the past few years.

[Clapping] [Laughs] Marcelo: ¿Estás escuchando a mami, Alex?

Marcelo: ¿Y?

Woman: Alex.

¿Qué?

[Laughs] Man: Bye, bye.

Marcelo: Love you, Dad.

♪ Marcelo: Oh my god, did you feel the heat?

♪ Woman: Robie!

Alex, Marcelo.

♪ ♪ Woman: Ándale, sí, porque [indistinct].

♪ Marcelo: Como si yo no estoy aquí.

Yo te digo cuando la cámara está grabando, ok?

♪ This looks insane.

♪ Robie: I called Alex.

I asked him to come home.

We should be doing this together.

You're in my shot.

Robie: You're in my shot.

I was here first.

Robie: Do you remember the last time we were here?

For y'all's graduation.

Alex: Yeah, we were sitting by the gold post 'cause we were top 10.

Such clever boys.

Robie: Bien inteligentes.

Alex: Bien pilas los dos.

Bueno, ¿y ahora qué?

¿Unos taquitos?

Robie: No, pues a seguirle, mijo.

♪ Oh, I need you by me ♪ ♪ Beside me, to guide me ♪ ♪ To hold me ♪ Presenter: Today is one of those special days.

Especially in our culture.

As we remember, of course, a great artist, a Tejano artist, who always kept the name of Tejano music, and the culture, and overall wealth of representation of what being a true Latino and a Tejana was all about.

[Clapping] Woman 1: Thank you, mayor.

Woman 2: Quiero verlos con las palmas arriba.

Y a bailar se ha dicho.

Robie: My cousin Mariel and I have the exact same birthday.

Just one year apart.

She lived in Piedras.

So I always thought of her as my Mexicana mirror.

I felt like everyone was constantly comparing us.

Quién era la más portadita, quién era la más inteligente, quién se llevaba con todos mejor.

But we both loved Selena.

And we'd sing "Como la flor" at the top of our lungs on repeat in Mariel's bathroom.

And then fall over laughing at ourselves.

♪ ♪ Baila esta cumbia ♪ ♪ Un ritmo, ritmo sin igual ♪ ♪ Nadie se quede sentado ♪ ♪ Todos ♪ ¡Vuelta!

♪ Vamos a bailar ♪ ♪ Baila, baila esta cumbia ♪ Girl: Vuelta.

Give me your hands.

Vuelta.

One step this way, another step this way, then one step this way, and another step that way.

You've got to do it slowly.

You've got to do it slowly.

One step.

Look, I'll show you how, okay?

So I'm going to pretend I'm... ¡Cumbia!

I'm going to pretend I'm dancing with someone.

One, two, one, two, okay?

So don't worry, it's fine.

Don't rush, just do it slowly.

One, two, one, two, okay?

It's fine, don't worry.

Hands.

One.

♪ ♪ I found something, look!

We found a Mr. Caterpillar.

Oh my God, don't touch it because it might be poisonous.

I'll scoop you up with a leaf.

Girl: Okay.

Oh my God.

Did you already get your new schedule?

Yeah, I did.

Same.

But I don't even know who are my teachers.

I don't know, I feel like in junior high teachers are super chill.

And I feel like here, like...

It's like the real thing.

Cause we're going to get ready to go to college and stuff.

I don't know, that makes me nervous.

Like that we're literally, like... We would need like 3 more years to graduate.

That's crazy.

Yeah.

And like how people are.

Like are people mean?

Like.

And I feel like my mom always tells me that it goes by fast though.

So it's like...

I don't want it to end.

But then, I do.

Cause I want to see, like, what happens after like high school.

And like if, I don't know, things change or if like you're still friends with like the same people.

You better not be trying to make me look ugly.

I'm not trying, it just like, worked... Robie: When I got to high school, I made friends at dance class across the river in Piedras.

One night, they were talking [Bleep] about a girl they all knew.

Que tenía uñas rojas de [Bleep].

I laughed along with them while I hid my chipped red nails in my sleeves.

Girl 1: I have to go to New Mexico in a week.

Girl 2: Are you driving over there?

Or...

Girl 1: Oh, yeah.

We're driving over there.

It's a 10 hour drive.

Girl 2: What's the longest that everybody's like, drived somewhere?

Girl 1: Um, Disney.

Girl 2: Mine was like two days.

Girl 1: Torreón?

Girl 2: Nope.

Yeah, yeah, [indistinct].

Can I put like Tajín in all of it?

Yeah.

Claro.

My birthday is, um, the third week of school.

My quince's going to start like a week after school starts.

And I don't want anyone to mind my embarrassing drunk tíos and tías.

Robie: I rejected my parents offer to have a quinceañera.

The last thing I wanted was to party with my family.

I wanted to take a trip instead.

But the trip never happened.

Now I just keep imagining little Mars and Alex on the dance floor.

♪ I should have just taken them up on that [bleep] quince.

[Mariachi music playing] ♪ Yo te amo mucho ♪ ♪ Yo me entrego a Ti ♪ ♪ Oh, mi Dios ♪ ♪ Tú me diste la vida ♪ ♪ Y sanaste la herida ♪ ♪ Que el pecado me causó ♪ ♪ Oh, mi Dios ♪ ♪ Tú me diste la vida ♪ ♪ Y sanaste la herida ♪ ♪ Que el pecado me causó ♪ ♪ ♪ ["Fireworks" by Katy Perry playing] ♪ Boom, boom, boom ♪ ♪ Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon ♪ ♪ Boom, boom, boom ♪ ♪ Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon ♪ ♪ I left a day.

Not even a full 24 hours.

They went Transformers on the house.

Like they put security cameras like at the front of the door.

Funny how you're never going to be able to sneak out.

Ever.

¿Quién dijo?

Those cameras?

But they don't...

They have a blind spot.

No se puede ver del otro lado, por donde están los árboles.

I know my house.

I was like, why did you guys do that?

She was like, "Porque se lo dieron barato a tu papá.

I was like, "Crap."

Ahora van a ver quién me recoge.

Ooh!

Just tell whoever picks you up not to get off.

Obviously.

But what if she recognizes a car and be like, "Hmm."

You remember that one time in Christmas when Jacob's dad, like, caught us that we were, like, cruising around at 6 in the morning?

Yeah.

'Cause y'all are stupid.

It wasn't even him.

No, it wasn't even him.

It was, cause you know how his dad is a border patrol?

It was one of his friends, yeah.

They like saw his car.

Siempre son los amigos.

Siempre son los tíos y las tías que van y chismean.

Girl 2: Okay, true though.

EP ain't safe.

Robie: Mami siempre dijo: "Pueblo chico, infierno grande".

So I learned that if you break any one of the unspoken rules, te quemas.

Las niñas calladitas se ven más bonitas.

You need to dress well.

Porque como te ven, te tratan.

Las niñas bien no andan en la calle después de las 12.

And if you're going to have a boyfriend, mas te vale que no sea de Eagle Pass.

Teenage Boy 1: Not going to lie, güey.

These are some really nice trails.

Teenage Boy 2: Hey, chill, Speedy.

Teenage Boy 1: I know, right?

I don't know what the hell happened to him, All I heard coach G tell me was that, "Dude, Gomez was winning and he threw up the last 200 meters."

Teenage Boy 1: Güey, but, it was a strategy, güey.

I was going to let you catch up.

Teenage Boy 3: I know, right?

Teenage Boy 1: Hey, is it true?

That like, the shoelaces on like the wire.

Teenage Boy 2: Yeah, it's their own property.

No, like they're drug dealers or whatever?

No.

If there're shoes on top of the wires, that means it's someone's property.

First of all, those are not shoes.

Okay, but it reminded me of shoes.

Those are just like the markers so you can see.

Like when you're going over in a helicopter.

That's what they've told me before.

I don't think that's legal.

[Laughing] Teenage Boy 1: Michael.

Teenage 2: Hey, looks like he's going to go pee.

Michael: It does, right?

What are we doing now?

Teenage Boy 3: Look, go across, bro.

Michael: Hey.

Teenage Boy 1: Are you done?

Teenage Boy 2: Ey, we're just kidding, we miss you.

Hey, the border patrol, dude.

They're like going slow for us.

He's like, "What the heck?"

Teenage Boy 1: I thought y'all were doing...

I left my hand like this forever.

Teenage Boy 2: I said hi!

I said hi.

No, but I left it like this.

Look, you're just an awkward person in general.

It's okay.

[Laughs] All right, guys.

Gomez, but chill, güey.

Gomez, you're not Speedy Gonzales, okay?

Not today, at least.

Ay, las espinas.

[Laughing] ♪ ♪ Cuidado, cuidado.

♪ Coach: Helmets on, guys.

We don't get enough time to drink water.

We just got like two sips?

I drank a thousand.

Obie, you didn't drink water?

Coach: Helmet on, guys.

Of course I did.

Helmets on!

Now!

Kid: Helmets on!

Renata: Oye, Ponchito, si llegas tarde, ¿qué te hacen hacer?

¿Tienes que jugar con mayor o menos?

Nope.

I'm going to have to do extra laps.

Renata: [Chuckles] My coaches are ruthless.

Renata: Pero pues así es el americano.

Why do some people call soccer football?

Girl 2: Porque así se dice en español.

It's the same.

You can just say soccer.

Renata: Pero se escucha raro.

No sé.

No se escucha bien.

Ponchito: Nuh-uh, it sounds the same, but you just say a different word.

Renata: Tu nomás dices eso porque ya estás todo gringo.

Ya sé.

La verdad que sí.

Poncho: How dare you say that?

Pues, ves, o sea, te estoy hablando en español y me contestas en inglés.

Gringo.

Ponchito: ¿Por qué me hablas eso, Renata?

¿Ves?

Porque ni eso.

"Por qué me hablas eso", eso ni es algo correcto.

Robie: The twins didn't get the memo that it was way cooler to be Mexican.

They didn't go to Piedras to play American football, like Paco did.

Coach in background: That bouncing one is yours.

Robie: They didn't wear those unbuttoned dress shirts or slick back their hair.

And their Spanish wasn't as smooth as mine or Paco's.

Coach: ¡Baja!

¡Baja!

Te pasaste.

Ay, mi nalga.

¿Te noqueaste?

[Yells] [Boys laugh] Coach: Esa que va botando es tuya.

¡Me la siguen pelando!

¡Come zacate!

[Birds chirping] Robie: So, I felt like they got in the way of me fitting in with the cool kids from Piedras.

Coach: Pick up your feet, guys!

Pick up your feet!

Robie: Being around them felt like social suicide.

It was always so embarrassing how Americanized they were.

Noor: ♪ Si una vez dije que te amaba, hoy me arrepiento ♪ ♪ Una vez dije que te amaba ♪ ♪ No sé lo que pensé, estaba loca ♪ ♪ Una vez dije que te amaba ♪ ♪ Y que por ti yo la vida daba ♪ ♪ Una vez una vez dije que te amaba ♪ ♪ Una vez ♪ ♪ Ese error es cosa de ayer ♪ Woman: Jump.

[Yells] Which way is the door?

Which way is the...?

[Laughs] This way.

Okay, not there.

We're trapped, okay?

No, we are not.

We are.

What do you mean?

Look, it's open.

We're just walking.

[Laughs] No, this way, this way.

Go this way.

[Laughs] Woman: Noor, are you there?

Yes, I'm trying to!

[Laughs] It's so difficult!

[Yells] [Loud bang] Man: Are you okay?

Noor!

[Knocks on glass] I'm lost, I'm lost!

[Birds chirping] Paul McCartney: ♪ Motorcars, handlebars ♪ ♪ Bicycles for two ♪ Robie: I've had Mars's journal for two years.

Paul McCartney: ♪ Broken-hearted jubilee ♪ ♪ Parachutes, army boots, sleeping bags for two ♪ Robie: I haven't really gone through it.

Paul McCartney: ♪ Sentimental jamboree ♪ Robie: Can you tell this was Mache's, Pepi?

Paul McCartney: ♪ "Buy!

Buy!"

♪ ♪ Says the sign in the shop window ♪ Robie: I'm scared not to have new things to learn and discover.

Paul McCartney: ♪ "Why?

Why?"

says the junk in the yard ♪ Robie: Wow, dude.

But I wish I could hear him now more than ever.

Paul McCartney: ♪ Da-da-ya-da-da-da ♪ ♪ Da-da-ya, da-da-ya, da-da ♪ ♪ And me ♪ ♪ "Buy!

Buy!"

says the sign in the shop window ♪ Robie: I don't know what I'm doing.

Paul McCartney: ♪ "Why?

Why?"

Says the junk in the yard ♪ Robie: I don't know why I still can't remember him.

Paul McCartney: ♪ Da-da-ya-da-da-da-da ♪ ♪ [Birds chirping] [Rooster crows] [Birds chirping] [Rooster crows] Michael Jackson: ♪ Yes, love never felt so good 'cause ♪ ♪ Baby, every time I love you ♪ ♪ It's in and out of my life ♪ Girl: Da vuelta.

Michael Jackson: ♪ Tell me if you really love me ♪ ♪ It's in and out of my life ♪ ♪ In and out, baby ♪ ♪ Baby, love never felt so good ♪ Girl: Sigue los 4 pasos.

Sí.

Háblale.

Si se hablan en "Dancing with the Stars", que no se van a hablar ustedes.

Michael Jackson: ♪ Every time I love you ♪ ♪ In and out of my life ♪ [Clap] Girl: Cambio.

[Laughs] [Clap] Girl: La vuelta.

Michael Jackson: ♪ Baby, love never felt so good ♪ Girl: Es para allá.

¿Y luego ya el último?

Ahí está más o menos, ¿no?

Sí, pero... No tiene que salir perfecto.

Tú nada más sonríe.

[Bouncing basketball] Robie: Alex told me about a night Mars had a salsa club.

The girl he was dancing with was nervous, but he confidently led her through the moves.

[Bouncing basketball] She stepped on him apologizing, but he just laughed and reassured her that she was doing great.

She sent Alex a beautiful note after he died, about how that night he had left an impression on her, and how he moved though the world with wisdom and warmth.

[Bouncing basketball] [Distant chatting] [Water flowing] Alright, Robie, are you ready?

Robie: Sí, lista.

Alright.

Come on in, Jesús.

Woman: You have your tacos, dear?

Yes, very important.

Here we go.

[Birds chirping] Just the stillness of nature.

[Whistles] ¿Cuántos llevas?

No, acabo de empezar.

[Laughs] Man: ¿Sí hay mucho pescado?

Está bonito.

Más o menos.

Suerte.

Man: [Laughs] Ah, mira.

¡Ah, ya pescó!

Man: He got one, he got one.

Whoo, he got one.

¡Mojarra!

Man: [Laughs] ¡Está bueno!

Suerte.

Man: Suerte.

Wow.

The Río Grande river at its best.

I love it.

I love it.

[Motorboat approaching] Boy: Qué padre, está todo.

Boy 2: Mira ya empezaron los barcos.

¿Ya empezaron?

Mira, allá van.

Y, bien padre, ya van a empezar.

Ahorita ya se metió uno azul.

¿Ya se salió?

Ya, allá va. Ira, allá van, allá van, allá van.

Allá van, mira.

¡Allá van, allá van!

Va uno rojo y uno azul.

Mira, ya se salió uno, otro.

¿Dónde?

[Mumbles] ¿Sabías que ya tengo visa?

¿Qué?

¿Sabías que ya tengo visa?

No.

Pa cruzar pa Eagle Pass.

¿Tú no?

No.

Cómprate una.

¿Y por qué...?

[Laughing] Ay, qué padre cruzar.

Por este puente, por esta... hasta allá.

Cruzas y luego puedes ver una tortuga.

Hay muchos pantalones y "chores".

Hmm.

¿Por qué?

[Helicopter approaching] Ey, ira, va cruzar la frontera.

No es cierto, va a dar vuelta.

Ah, no la cruzó.

[Helicopter sounds closer] Bien padre.

Bien padre está todo.

[Kids yelling] [People cheering] [Sounds of helicopters] [Birds chirping] You're it!

[Laughing] Alex: Are you nervous?

Robie: Yeah.

Alex: Why?

Robie: I just feel like we've... Like, I have this idea, this expectation of what I thought this would feel like, being here.

And... Alex: What did you think it would feel like?

Robie: I don't know, I just thought that being home and you being here and being with Mom and Paco and going to all these, like, familiar spaces and, like, familiar experiences, would sort of connect something.

Just like getting this flood of memories and... And I just, like, I feel like I expected to be like... like Marcelo to just like show up and...

I feel like he was... effortlessly showing up with his camera.

Y a mí me da pena.

And I'm just like trying to use the camera as an invisibility cloak.

Meanwhile, Mars was like using it and being there and being with everybody and, like... Yeah, I don't know.

Alex: I think that's...

I mean, it makes total sense.

I think it's okay to have frustrations with not feeling satisfied.

Maybe we're not getting to relive the memories that we had when we were little, but we're getting to experience things that remind us of Mars.

Robie: Yeah.

Alex: I don't know if you're ever going to feel satisfied with the memories that you have.

Robie: Yeah.

Maybe I just need to think about it differently.

[Train whistle sound] [Birds chirping] Mia, guess what.

Yeah?

One time in Eagle Pass there was a rainbow.

I didn't see it because I wasn't living here.

Umm, what should we do, Mia?

Maybe... Do you want to do some chalk stuff?

I brought chalk.

Uh, yeah.

Zoe.

Robie: I was in kindergarten when I made my first real friend, Kristina.

Mia, look.

Mia, look.

Look what I wrote.

It says, "Zoe loves Mia."

Now I know.

Zoe: I'm looking up at the sky.

I'm looking at all the birds.

Robie: On the first day of school, our teacher told us to choose our best friends for the year.

[Yells] Maybe I can draw your eyes.

Robie: We looked at each other, slapped our hands on each other's desks, and were inseparable after that.

We sang the songs about being proud to be an American and learned to deeply love Texas and blue bonnets, the state flower.

Zoe: Guess what.

Mia: What?

Zoe: That pond is drying up.

So that's why I wanted to bring you here.

Here, come see it.

Butterfly!

[Yells] Get it!

Get it!

[Yells] That's a scary one!

¡Ándale, ándale, ándale!

You were just running from the butterfly.

It was scary.

It's fine.

Smell it.

It smells like dried up pee.

[Birds chirping] ♪ Dude, Larissa goes pretty to school every day.

Full face... Did you tell your mom?

About what?

My party, bitch.

Oh, my god, no, I haven't.

I'm scared to ask.

Why?

Because what if she says no?

And I really want to go.

You need to go.

Ya sé, ya sé.

Nunca he ido.

I don't know the ambiente in Piedras.

Girl.

It's the best one.

You don't have to tell her we're going to get hammered.

She can just assume.

Es que tengo miedo porque...

I feel that she's gonna tell me, "No, tienes tarea".

Girl, it's Friday!

It's not going to be turned in like...

I know.

It's not going to be turned in on Saturday.

Dude, it's me!

Oh, my god.

We've known each other since I came out of the womb.

Sleep with me at my house.

Dude, just come back and crash.

Me and Julissa are gonna come back, right?

I don't know how, but yeah.

We'll probably go walking.

No me voy a ir en carro porque voy a tomar.

Yeah.

No drinking and driving.

Sabrá Dios quién nos vaya y nos recoja.

The Lord himself.

[Laughs] [Bleep] it.

You have to go.

Déjame atiendo a estos... Buenas, ¿qué les puedo ofrecer?

♪ Robie: I wonder what it would've been like to feel at ease being the awkward Tejana that I was.

♪ With my colorful Converse and polo shirts, but proud of my frontera accent.

Unconcerned with fitting in.

♪ I might have ignored all the pressures.

Como cuando mami quería que me vistiera más femenina.

And then maybe, quizás, no me hubiera dado pena con las debutantes.

Calvin Harris & Sam Smith: ♪ Are you high enough ♪ ♪ To excuse that I'm ruined?

♪ ♪ 'Cause I'm ruined ♪ ♪ Is it late enough ♪ ♪ For you to come and stay over?

♪ ♪ 'Cause we're free to love ♪ ♪ So tease me ♪ ♪ I make no promises ♪ ♪ I can't do golden rings ♪ ♪ But I'll give you everything tonight ♪ ♪ Magic is in the air... ♪ [Fades out] [Birds chirping] ♪ ♪ I think Alex is right.

I'm not sure if I'll ever get these memories back.

I guess that's why I became compulsive about documenting after Mars was gone.

Without even realizing.

♪ [Distant chatting] ♪ But maybe it was never about memory for Mars.

Maybe it was about being present ♪ and helping look at life more intently.

♪ I'll never know.

But it feels good to learn new things with him again.

♪ Fer, Mom's asking if you want huevo.

Okay.

I already said yes!

You did not say yes.

Mom: Fercho, ¿vas a ayudar el sábado?

Fer: No!

Ya puso que sí.

He said in the morning.

♪ Robie: This feels like our home used to.

♪ All of us totally taking each other for granted.

♪ Isn't that the most luxurious feeling in the world?

♪ ♪ [Birds chirping] ♪ ♪ [People cheering] Girl: We're ready for wings.

Woman: Ready for wings?

Ay, ya me cansé.

Quítate las [Bleep] chanclas, güey.

[People laughing] Woman: Más vale muerta que sencilla, güey.

♪ Carcacha, paso a pasito ♪ ¡Ya!

[Cheers] Y ahora sigue otro que tengo extra.

No sé quién lo quiera.

¿Quién lo quiere?

Yo.

¿Quién dice yo?

Yo quiero.

[Laughs] Man: Ah, Robie!

¡Ahora sí!

¡Todo mundo con las manos en alto y diciendo...!

♪ ¡Uno!

♪ ♪ ¡Dos!

♪ ♪ ¡Tres!

♪ ♪ ¡Cuatro!

♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ Que humareda que nos tiene ahogando ♪ ♪ La gente se pregunta, nadie sabe qué es ♪ ♪ Un carro viejo que viene pitando ♪ ♪ Con llantas de triciclo y el motor al revés ♪ ♪ En la esquina, yo esperando ♪ ♪ Como siempre su novia fiel ♪ ♪ Mis amigas se están burlando ♪ ♪ Murmuran cosas de él ♪ ♪ ♪ We're only young and naive still ♪ ♪ We require certain skills ♪ ♪ The mood it changes like the wind ♪ ♪ Hard to control when it begins ♪ ♪ The bittersweet between my teeth ♪ Girl: I'm scared.

Girl: Why?

Because of the money.

Like, I'm just scared of not having enough money.

Even though I'm going to work, like, when I'm over there, but I'm scared, like, what if I don't get transferred?

What if I don't get to work?

Or like, what if everything goes wrong that could go wrong?

Everything in life can go wrong, but, I mean, it hasn't now, so...

I know, but I'm still scared.

Yeah.

I think I'm scared of coming back.

Like to live and stuff like that.

Because then, what's the point of it all?

All that hard work and money just to come back to the same place that you wanted to leave so bad?

It doesn't make sense.

I want to live in the city.

And what are you gonna do over there?

Rebrand myself.

Robie: I can feel it.

[Children squealing] The moment I realized that 17 years of my life had passed by.

[Children chatting distantly] I was playing with Mars and Alex.

We were running around upstairs in circles dancing to Kylie Minogue.

♪ They were still shorter than me.

And we were creating "dance fusion," we called it.

♪ ♪ It feels like the end of a time that once felt endless.

♪ And I just want to stay here a little bit longer.

♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ [Thunder rumbling] ♪ And then I had many dream-filled nights ♪ made up of all the moments that I have been collecting.

Or maybe Mars had been collecting.

♪ And it looks like a thousand lifetimes of ordinary adventures we get to live together.

Te quiero mucho.

♪ ♪ [Yells] ♪ ♪ And in my dream, when I wake up, he's still there smiling.

♪ ♪ Man: What is it?

"New York Robie is home with her mommy."

That's my favorite.

Man: "New York Robie is home with her mommy"?

New York Robie... ♪ Is back home living with her mommy ♪ ♪ Making a movie that no one cares about ♪ ♪ She wants to get everybody ♪ ♪ Involved, but nobody cares enough ♪ ♪ About New York Robie ♪ ♪ Living home with her mommy ♪ ♪ It's not gonna work out ♪ ♪ No one really cares about a documentary ♪ ♪ About the border ♪ ♪ Get that camera out of my face ♪ ♪ New York Robie, you're a disgrace ♪ Robie: That's so mean.

Go away.

[Laughs] Robie: Rude, guys.

That's very helpful.

Thank you.

Sorry.

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